The beginning of baby

I found out that I was pregnant on March 5th or 6th. I had been suspecting this was the case for about a week, but I didn't want to waste a pregnancy test, so I waited to take it. After attending our women's conference at church, I went home, snuck into the bathroom without JP seeing me, and took the test. It didn't take long for the two lines to appear and confirm my suspicions. I would not say that it was a surprise, but at the same time, I wasn't really expecting it or planning on it quite yet, so I honestly wasn't sure what to think I didn't know what JP would think.

I composed myself and got JP to go on a walk with me. We walked to where he proposed to me. I then told him sweet things and gave him a button that read "Future Father". His face lit up and he said "Really!!"- He thought it was great and I started crying. I must say that it took us a while to get used to the idea, but now we love it!

We waited a few weeks before we told anyone, partly because I wanted to tell family in person before anyone else knew, but mostly because I had a lot of fears about early miscarriage because we found out at 4 1/2 weeks. But God has taught me a lot about that. At every stage of pregnancy there is the possibility that something could go wrong. There is this baby growing inside of you (and aside from basic health choice) and yet you have no control over the situation and you cannot see what is going on. God teaches us from the very beginning that we have to trust God with out children- it isn't going to change when I can see him, his growth and development (physically and spiritually) is up to God, no matter how much control I may think I have. I must give Silas to God from the very beginning.